What Happened?

I Haven't been on this blog in so long, I forgot about it. I originally started the blog to share my life on the road as a truck driver. But since then I've found myself working so much I don't even have the time for the Twitter and Facebook feeds.

What happened? I kept moving from one trucking company to another, hoping to find a company that would allow me to spend time with my family. And make a decent living. I'm finally at a company that can get me home, but I have to work an obscene amount of hours to try and support my family.

So what's next? I can't keep working this hard to just make the rent payments. And I can't go back to the companies that couldn't get me home. Not that I get home now. Because I can't afford to go home.

I have job applications out there that other companies have called me about. But I'm at a point now of just giving up. I'm thinking. What the hell? I've got a job when a lot of people are out of work. I should be greatfull, right?

Well no, I'm not. I'm not one of those guys that say, so and so has this, why can't I? But at the same time. This is the first day I've had off in over a month. And I can't afford to do anything on my down time. Not to mention the things that I actually do want in this life. Right now I'd be happy to be able to take my wife out to dinner. doesn't even have to be all that nice. Hell I'd settle for Chili's or Red Robin. Something better then McDonalds. But doesn't have to be Ruth's Chris, know what I mean?

Anyway, what the hell? I just don't know what to do? I'm home less (and almost homeless) then when I made almost twice as much but couldn't get home then with the current job that can get me home but I can't afford to be here.