Twisted

I'm in Ashland City Tennessee, just west of Nashville. The last couple of days have actually been pretty good. I got here on a run from California with a stop down near New Orleans. Just under 2500 miles.

The problem. I really want a job that I get to go home at the end of the day, but since at the present time those jobs are not available, I'm thinking I'd rather run then put so much effort into getting home on the weekly basis.

The problem with trying to get home. I live in an area that's kind of hard to get to. Hence the reason there aren't that many local jobs, but there are a couple Jobs locally that run into California and back..... I hate California.

Then here comes this run. Four days of driving. Deliver in the morning then five hundred miles to the final stop. What can I say? Other then. Beats the hell out of running from dock to dock in California.

Another problem. Where do I find a company that will run me? Crete Carrier ran me good when I worked for them. But I couldn't get home.

The rest of the companies I've worked for wants me to do what I'm doing right now. Little short runs, which I wouldn't mind the little runs if I got paid by the hour. But I get paid by the mile. So if I get stuck doing seven three to four hundred mile runs that's twenty one to twenty eight hundred miles a week. Which wouldn't actually happen. But even if it did. I'd have seven days into what I just did in five days.

Guess the companies make a good amount of money doing these little short hauls, but obviously I don't. And like I said. If I can't find a job that gets me home daily. I don't want to keep putting so much effort into getting home on the weekends either..

Especially since, another thing I just thought about. I'm usually pushing myself past the point of exhaustion to get home Friday or Saturday night only to be home just long enough to reset my hours( thirty four hours) and go back to trying to get home.

Not to mention that that thirty four hour break doesn't give me enough time to get anything done at home..

At least when I run three or four weeks I can get a decent amount of time off, as long as I can afford to take the time off.

Damn, now I'm really confused as to what to do.